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Hello Again manonamission here> First allow me to tell you how grateful I am for God sending his son Jesus Christ to save a whetch like me.
At the start of my recovery from alcohol and drugs and finding out I was HIV postive.I did not know what I was going to do , and I throught I was going to die tomorrow.
I got involved with N.A And A.A. and started to learn about the twelve steps these steps are very powerful and are the foundation of my recovery.I am very appeciative of the rooms of A.A. And N.A. for they encouragement me to take the thrid step which say I made a decision to turn my will and my life over to the care of God as i understand him.
SO I started making wed bible study sunday school reading the bible on my own I join the choir I left the rooms of N.A. And A.A. because I need God in my life full time and since the steps came from the Bible I needed it to be my all in all.
time goes by and I am staying clean from drugs and alcohol living well with HIV and God is dealing with every day showing me orther areas of my life that needed to change the hardest was practiceing homosexuality.
I did not sign up for this I only at first wanted to stay clean from drugs and alcohol Learn to llve longer with HIV.
But as my walk with Jesus Christ, grew and he started revealing more and more to me about how our Father feels about how I was living I had to again make a decesion
In The book of Genesis Chapter 6 verse 6-7 it talks about about how un happy God was with his creation because of how we were living it go on to say we broke his heart and then he dicided to destroy the human race all but Noah.
Now mind you my story is really longer and deeper 1st I never know my earthly father so it was kinda hard to grasp this Heavenly Father But all my life I had been searching for A father I found him in God Our Creator also our father and he so I found out only wants the best for me what Joy. Not only that but i got a saviour, brother and I am joint heir talking about my life turning around.
Now here on Earth My mom past away 20 some odd yeaars ago and I had 4 brothers and 3 sister's. I love them ( at this writing two brother's have passed on ) but they were never really brother's and sister's My
My Mom had three sets of children three differnt men and that is another story which ties all of my stories together If I could only write a book.
so Back to my point God was heart broken because allthrough I am clean from drugs and alcohol and doing well living with virus I was having trouble making up my mind about my life style.
Finally I decided I loved God more than I love myself he was better to me than I was to myself. and reading his word I found help in changing from who I allowed myself to be made into to allowing Jesus change into who God wanted me to be. First understand I believe that homesexuality is a learned behavior I was molested by a neighbor which I don't know if my family knew about but then again in the Boy Scouts Of America which they did know about but did nothing about.
So I believed all was allright. Untill I met Jesus and experienced him for myself In the book of Romans Chapter 6 we learn aout Sins power is broken chapter 7 No longer Bound to sin These are ways out of the sinful life that has been keeping me seperated fom God My father and Creator .
Right now I am not the most popular person because the world is very accepting of things which God is not and I have denounced a life style which is all I knew But God Promise's me that he will reward me and carry me through . So Now I am learning to stand firm on his promise. I also know that I have to belive everything written in this Great Book The Bible and apply all of it to my life.
Is my walk hard it is lonely because OF HIV and fear right now of having a relationship with a women allthrough their are many who are HIV Postive.
But Jesus will walk me through this I know he will HE is faithful that way . I have to do my PArt and remain faithful to.
If you wonder why I share my life with you ?
well First that is what we should be doing so the brother are sister coming behind can have some hope. We are so glad to get out of the mud and get clean we forget sometimes about the person left behind.
I believe people need to know that we can do all things through Christ who strengths us.
And that means overcoming Homosexuality and ever other sins that we are expericeneing.
But how do we really know if we who have overcome keep quiet.
I pray that my stories of our God is moving in life encourages you to stay still and allow him to work it out for you.
Peace